One of the biggest secrets we try to keep is just a sense of autonomy and pride. The concept or feeling that you are important in a few special way, that you are loved by way of a special person, that somebody is providing you special attention, these are a few of the ego's very subtle secrets. We want to hide our Divine Self and are playing each one of these different games, which seem to be very upsetting. It is pretty depressing and it surely doesn't go anywhere, so we try to get scraps of special love, attention and recognition to prop ourselves up.
We work so difficult at becoming “better people”, at gaining greater intelligence and more skills. We wish to be liked more and be more popular. The whole self-help industry is centered on improving the self to help you develop into a better you. That is another trick we secretly play on ourselves, thinking we've to keep spinning our wheels trying to become better what is a course in miracles. This self-improvement game is another secret we can to master to release of. It is very relaxing when you start to realize that you may not have to become any better than you already are. You had been created perfect. It is not through self-improvement that you find peace but through self-acceptance.
As I worked with A Course in Miracles, I possibly could observe that there was an anxiety about divine love in my mind. I realized this was the ego's anxiety about losing itself. The ego is afraid to be exposed and being viewed as a puff of nothingness. That is worries of intimacy. We speak about this fear in relationships, which might be projected as anxiety about sexual intimacy, but it's really an anxiety about dropping our persona, our mask of individuality. It is worries to getting swept away by way of a glorious love, a love so powerful that none people can even imagine something as glorious and powerful!
For me, those will be the big secrets, because it doesn't start out with this particular great awareness. It always starts with feeling like you've done something very wrong, whether you've masturbated, stolen something, mistreated somebody, or there is something in your head that you've judged as so hideous that that you do not even want to handle it, you just want to forget about it and push it out of awareness.
Underneath those memories and thoughts, could be the belief that people are separated. This is actually the “secret” we hide. It really is an impossible belief, but we believe that it is true; We've judged it as horrific and have pushed it out of awareness. All unconscious guilt originates from this belief in separation. And as you probably give yourself to the miracle, you're feeling those hidden beliefs and secrets are now being washed away and you finally face this hidden belief in separation!
A Course In Miracles is a book which brings you tools to reverse all fearful thoughts and beliefs. Using these tools afford them the ability to get the complete sense of freedom and peace you've been yearning for.
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