One of the biggest secrets we try to help keep is really a sense of autonomy and pride. The concept or feeling that you will be important in a few special way, that you will be loved by a special person, that somebody is giving you special attention, they are some of the ego's very subtle secrets. We are attempting to hide our Divine Self and are playing each one of these different games, which appear to be very upsetting. It is pretty depressing and it certainly doesn't go anywhere, so we try to have scraps of special love, attention and recognition to prop ourselves up.
We work so difficult at becoming “better people”, at gaining greater intelligence and more skills. We wish to be liked more and be much more popular. The whole self-help industry is dedicated to improving the self so you can turn into a better you. That's another trick we secretly play on ourselves, thinking we've to help keep spinning our wheels attempting to become better. This self-improvement game is another secret we could to master to release of. It is very relaxing when you start to understand that you do not need certainly to become any benefit than you already are. You're created perfect. It is not through self-improvement that you find peace but through self-acceptance.
As I worked with A Course in Miracles, I could note that there was a fear of divine love in my mind. I realized this is the ego's anxiety about losing itself. The ego is afraid to be exposed and being seen as a puff of nothingness. That's the fear of intimacy a course in miracles. We discuss this fear in relationships, which is sometimes projected as anxiety about sexual intimacy, but it's really a fear of dropping our persona, our mask of individuality. It is the fear to getting swept away by a glorious love, a love so powerful that none people may also imagine something as glorious and powerful!
For me personally, those are the big secrets, since it doesn't start off with this specific great awareness. It always starts with feeling like you've done something very wrong, whether you've masturbated, stolen something, mistreated somebody, or there is something in your head that you've judged as so hideous that you don't even want to face it, you would like to forget about any of it and push it out of awareness.
Underneath all those memories and thoughts, may be the belief that people are separated. This is the “secret” we hide. It is actually an impossible belief, but we believe it is true; We've judged it as horrific and have pushed it out of awareness. All unconscious guilt originates from this belief in separation. And as you actually give yourself to the miracle, you feel all those hidden beliefs and secrets are now being washed away and you finally face this hidden belief in separation!
A Course In Miracles is a guide which brings you tools to reverse all fearful thoughts and beliefs. Using these tools afford them the ability to find the complete sense of freedom and peace you've always been yearning for.
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