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I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Element of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I will be doing this for the incorrect reason; as an easy way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to share wasn't yet clear in those days; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have enable you to see inside. acim Don't are interested troubling your brain, won't you let it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not think of anything that I had stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don't are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I'd somehow interfere having its residents'satisfaction, by just my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief has been (has been?) released.
You can find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.
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